After a – hell, I don’t know- like a ten-year hiatus from writing poems, I actually wrote poetry today. It felt awkward at first, and insubstantial – like flexing the phantom tendons and imaginary bones of a hand that had long since been amputated. They were ghost poems.
Do they actually exist?
Here’s one (unedited, I might add. And not particularly good.)STUMP POEM The last remnants of stubbled skin cling brutally to the side. Grey torso – grey flesh – In the glare of the sun, the memory of shade.
As I said, not particularly good, but it felt good. To write it I mean. And I didn’t start today with the intention of writing poetry. I wrote poetry because I was at a meeting.
A business meeting.
One of the best perks of working for an arts organization is that, every once in a while, you get to hang out with a bunch of artists. As many of you know, I work for an organization called Compas, which, among other things, schedules artist residencies and intensives in schools around the state of Minnesota. My colleagues are storytellers, poets, potters, accordion players, puppeteers, rappers, drummers, dancers, painters, actors, singers, spoken-word artists, and every other kind of art practitioner that I can’t even think of.
And they are wicked cool.
Anyway, we don’t get to see one another all that often, so I really look forward to our yearly business meeting as my one chance to say hi, drink coffee, gossip, swap stories and revel in the fact that I get to be associated with these folks.
We met out at Dodge Nature Center on an astonishingly beautiful morning. I parked far away on purpose just to give myself the opportunity to walk the trails and experience a moment of thick green and birdsong and bugsong and still ponds and damp, quiet breathing. We met in the education building, right next to the barns.
And after sitting in a meeting listening to the abysmal state of arts education in our state-
(did you know, for example, that there are districts that have removed all music instruction, from elementary to high school?)
(did you know that there are districts whose ENTIRE ARTISTIC CURRICULUM centers on a couple artist residencies?)
(did you know that there are districts who do not integrate the arts into their curriculum, despite the fact that the business world is desperate to find creative people who can think spatially and in interdisciplinary modes?)
But that was neither here nor there. In any case, when it was time for the break-out sessions, I was so filled with rage over the short-sightedness and mean-spiritedness when it comes to the arts, that I just couldn’t go to the grant writing workshop.
Instead I went to the nature poetry workshop. With Diego Vasquez – a terrific poet, a great teacher and a hell of a nice guy. He took us outside and charged us with writing poems. Short poems. About the things that surrounded us – dead things, living things. Things that move. Things that do not move. So, on this absolutely beautiful day, I wandered around and wrote short poems. And it felt REALLY good.
Like I-need-to-keep-doing-this-or-I-might-die good.
Here are some of my efforts, along with pictures of the things that inspired them. And I’m thinking that I shall have to continue writing poetry with my amputated poet muscles. I think I shall continue to write my phantoms – my inklings of the writer that I used to be. Because I kinda need to.
And perhaps I’ll post them on this blog.
Here are the poems:PLOW POEM Two seats one horse. Am I a tool or a metaphor? SHED POEM Whitewashed slats let in the breeze. A hail-knocked tin roof. A dark, windy, hiding-place.
SIGN POEM All my life, I looked for a sign. “THIS WAY!” it said, tilting towards the ground.
SILO POEM I once had a dream that I drowned under a crush of ripe grain. The silo’s roof is a geometric bite on a pale blue sky. I hold my breath and shiver.